This is me and my friend Tamar building a giant canvas. The plan is to paint something for a friend, and the crooked frame was just something I always wanted to do. The wooden construction was done by the guys, then me and Tam did the stretching, gluing, bolting and stapling of the actual frame and canvas. I can't say what I'm painting, but I'd say sacrilegious fits, (the guy I'm painting it for doesn't want to know until he sees it finished).

I had a big ol' paragraph about my beliefs about false idols, but I decided it sounded a little extremist, so instead I only have this to say about 'desecrating' so called 'holy' art: That which is truly holy, can not be made, created, or dirtied by human kind. It can be forgotten, it can be lost, and it can even be found.
Then again, it all depends on what you believe, and I believe that when Michelangelo was painting the Sistine chapel, he had a young lover who's finger was smaller then his.

My child approved, so I am done painting her.
Most of the time I can never be satisfied with my pieces, but since my son felt like clapping at it, this one makes me happy.

BPD

I've started to write a post about BPD a couple of times, but I just couldn't get the words to say what I wanted them too.

A stranger today gave me 4 tires he had at his house, simply because he overheard I couldn't buy one at the tire shop. It really made me feel like maybe mankind hasn't totally corrupted itself. So here's my attempt at giving something back, all-be-it an egotistical go at it.

For normal people, seeing a person with suicide like scars, is a scary and confusing thing. They are human, and I've found that the people that ask about the scars, are not being cruel, but curious, and honest about it. It has been over three years since I have injured, and I have no desire to do it ever again.

People like to ask, "why did you do it?" or "why?" and it's always hard to come up with an answer. For those that have never experienced addiction or mental breakdown, it can be really hard to understand. Here's how I'd like to explain it, I think it's an individual experience, but I'd think this is a common link.

Imagine if you will questioning on a daily basis your very existence, your right to breath, your ability to affect the world around you, or even the ownership of your own body.
Now imagine that in the midst of all that emotional chaos, and questioning, something falls and cuts open your finger, there is pain, there is blood, and now something else is in place of that turmoil. Like being pinched in a dream, or pinching yourself to make sure your not dreaming, control can be placed in your hands simply by causing an injury, pinch, cut or burn, whatever.

If it was the only way to relieve what was going on inside, would you do it? If nothing in the world seemed real or controllable but the contents of your skin, would you? How about when there is a charlie-horse, or a cramped toe, do you pull and poke and prod it to make it go away?

I guess the other thing I'm trying to convey is that it can, and will go away if you find a way to no longer need it. And for those who think this disorder is some way of getting attention....

If your dearest loved one was killing themselves slowly with poison, would you get them help, or ignore it because you don't understand it? Would you tell them to stop screaming for attention, or would you get them the help they desperately need?

Eh, I can't think of anything else to say on that subject at the moment. But I'm sure there is lots to say.

It gets better with work, It is an illness that needs to be treated, and human's are humans:Beautifully flawed, and blissfully ignorant

I wonder if I'll ever see the world again , the way my son see's it. I mean, I know it is quite impossible, knowledge corrupts the world around you from the day you find out the color of the grass is just from a chemical called chlorophyll. I guess that's why it would be so nice to explore new places, new lands, or continents. To get that feeling once more that the planet still has mystery to see, and to simply point at and say "pretty".

RED MAN

I already know the answer to this, but I'm just curious what others would say.

How is it in any way a christian tradition to set a mythical, magical fat man in a red suit at the head of the table for children to worship, on the day of Christ's birth?

I don't think I can understand how people can think that this magical being that they trick their kids with is in any way o.k. with God.

I've met so many atheists or half-believers, and do you know what they all had in common? The man in the red suit. Their parents presented them with this almighty magical being, made them believe it, even pretended to believe it themselves, and then, it was all a lie. Those same parents try to tell those same children God is real, with even less proof then they gave them that Santa was real.....

How is it possible that we have generations of atheists and brats with entitlement issues?.... It's all Santa Clause's fault.

FEED

I'll have to write it later, I don't have enough time.

Invisible alien pops into 'john smith's' life, tells john the aliens are going to come collect thier harvest soon.

John and alien talk about it, Aliens are really growing us for food here, and our genetic code isn't ripe until it's been thouroughly diversified. Most conusuers want the brain, and there has to be a certain amount of intelligence otherwise the brains can be sour or poisonous.

Alien wants to help John, make him a pet, and his whole litter if need be so that he doesn't get harvested.

hidden reason Alien wants to help John is because he's like the Alien version of PETA, and Animal Rights Activist.

Alien shows him his home, where Johns room will be, tells him how well he'll live, John wants to tell everyone and save them, but alien goes Invisible any time someone looks, Alien decides he's gonna have to kidnap a human for plan to work.

Blah blah blah, plot plot plot.,

Alien see's how we treat our animal species, see's how the two sides fight, See's a list of how many species we've wiped out, War and love, all that crap. He leaves with a puppy instead, and tells his animal rights group that the humans didn't want help.

Richard Tobey

The Book of Ascension

This book was hidden in the four Gospels Matthew, Mark, Luke and John
for God knew that early church would be tricked out of the most important book of all. The book of the forty days that Christ walked and taught the power that was made available after the resurrection.

For if the prince of this world had known, He would not have crucified the Lord of Glory.

Referring to the power that would be given to the people that believed on and in his name Jesus the Christ.

John 16:25 These things have I spoken onto you in proverbs:
But the time cometh, when I shall no more speak unto you in proverbs,
But I shall show you plainly of the father

John chapters 14,15,16, and 17 were spoken by the resurrected Jesus Christ;
Hidden from man until God deemed man ready again for the power that was
promised of the Father to be endued with the power from on high

John 16:32 belongs and starting at John 13:36

John 13:36 Behold, the hour cometh yea is now come, that ye shall be scattered every man to his own, and shall leave me alone and yet I am Not alone, because
the father is with me
John 13:37 Simon Peter said unto him, Lord wither goest thou?
Jesus answered him, whither I go thou canst not follow me now; but thou shalt follow me afterward.
John 13:38 Peter said unto him, Lord, why cannot I follow you now?
I will lay down my life for thy sake
John 13:39 Jesus answered him, will thou lay down thy life for my sake? verily verily I say unto thee the cock shall not crow till thou hast denied me thrice

Note: John 14:30 and 14:31 should be 13:40 and 13:41

John 13:40 Hereafter I will not talk much with you:for the prince of this world cometh and hath nothing in me.
John 13:41 But that the world may know that I love the father; and as the Father gave me commandments even so I do. Arise let us go hence

Note: John 18:1 would be next removing chapters 14,15,16,17

John 18:1 when Jesus had spoken these words, he went forth with his disciples over the brock cedron, were was a garden, into the which he entered and his disciples.

Note: Matthew, Mark, Luke will confirm this. Old King James version.

Note Matthew, Mark, Luke
Read for your self the end of the last supper until going into the garden. This will confirm that which I have written.
(Old King James Version)
Richard A. Tobey 11-22-09