Sunday, December 9, 2012


Not really stopping in for long.  Just stating that I exist.  It is nice to exist, and can't wait until I really have personal time again. 
If I could live on less then 9 hours sleep without being a zombie,  life would be easier.  But as I tell my child, my rechargeable battery needs lots of time to charge, and wears out very fast.  

*I've explained to him that our brains are like batteries and we need to sleep so that they can charge up*

Welp, there goes that time, gotta get my kid food.  And NO child, candy is not food. 

Bye ya!

Friday, July 27, 2012

Human Nature.

Just a thought. 
I heard a psycho(whathisnuts) analyst or something, saying on a news report that what idiot#25 did (the theatre 16 shooter ) was against his own nature. 
Everything humans do is to defy nature.  It's in our genetic structure to try and defeat what nature has in store.  We use tools, we start fires, we make machines, we try to cheat death, we destroy the planet that takes care of us, we take WAY more then we need, we use more.  Humans are separate from animals because of our ability to destroy anything in our path, or build around it regardless of the cost to our environment.
What would happen if other species decided they didn't want to die.  They understood death and wanted to find a way out, what would they be capable of?

So saying idiot#25 was going against human nature by destroying those lives (and his own) in that act of violence, in my opinion is in-correct. 

Our society, our species demands that you stick out from a crowd to succeed, and success is immortality.  Whatever those costs are, they are certainly not imbued by nature.  Being the bad guy, being the monster, and giving in is just easier then being a good guy. 

Let's face it.  Bad guys get all the good lines, and get to release the most chaos.
And in history, bad guys get all the fame.  Bad guys get all the attention. Being a bad guy is easy.
No holding back.  No filtering the crap.  No eggshells, fuck the eggshells  and walk where you choose.
Being bad is easier.  Horrid, Terrible, monsterous.... but easier.

So for all us good guys, struggling, fighting, sustaining our normal lives without much ado:
Congratulations, you may not be Mother Thearesa, but you haven't reverted to caveman to get the job done. Which takes more courage and strength and willpower then being the bully, the abuser, the dick, the asshole, the perv, the criminal.  It takes more to be civil and moral as a human, then it does to be less then human.

On another note.  I'm learning programming, and I have so little time that blogging probably is not going to happen much anymore.  ((Hopefully this programming thing works out and I get more time to write)).
Thinking about making an anonymous blog to put all my 'shits and giggles' into.  But no time for it yet.

Happier post next time.  Yes, happier.  Thanks for looking at my stuff the last couple years. 1400 people looked for a reason.  Just wish I knew what the reason is.  

Sunday, April 8, 2012


Apparently I've only done one blog entry this year so far.  I kind of lost interest in posting my personal life on the internet.   As long as the internet is still around when my kid gets to be 8 or 10, he'll be able to find all of this, and I'm thinking,  Do I want to give a teenager ammo against me?  NA.....  But I will say I am proud of my strong willed big guy, and hope he keeps that spirit in everything he does.   On other notes, life is life people.  We are a flawed species.  There are those that excell at being socially adapted, and those that create magic with science. There are artists, mathmaticians, architects, nerds, psychopaths, nymphomaniacs, and yet again my blogging is getting interuptted so there is no friggen point in trying.   I will try to continue my stories.   We are all imperfect, even Jesus Christ was tempted and tested by the devil.  So give yourselves a break, Give others a break. Eve may have took the first bite, but Adam was talked into it too, and by a much less skilled snake tongue.

BAH!!!   I have to go get the pumpkin to sleep so I can go to the gym. 

Tuesday, January 10, 2012


Hey!  Peter Strusell (Pheonetics since I can't copy and paste how to spell).    I can't read your blog, it's telling me it is only open to invited readers.  Don't hate me!  I like to see other people as furious as I want to be.  I have no idea how to get permission either, the blog message just told me to get an invitation.... How the hell do I do that?   So I'm posting, hoping you pop in.